Living A Tantric Life for OHM Shanti

Eight years ago while at work I had a breakthrough which required hospitalization. When I returned to work my boss took me to lunch and told me that he wanted me to take advantage of the early retirement program the Governmewnt just introduced. The early retirement program was intended to reduce the number of senior managers in their 50s who had more than 30 years of continous work experience. They counted 75% of your graduate education years towards the calculation of early retirment eligibility. My boss rightly pointed out that what I needed was a long break from work.

The early retiremnt proposal was very attractive. I would make 75% of my current salary plus federal canada pension plan payment which you received when you turned 60. In fact with early retirement plan  you would be taking home more money than if your working. This is because you saved on employment expences like transportation cost, food and party expences and clothing expences. It turned out that I would be taking home 250$ morw than what I was making. There was the added attraction that after waiting three years you could make money as consultant doing the same thing that you did but making more money. My boss pointed out that the smart civil servants are doing it. After sleeping on it for two weeks I decided to take the early retirement. As a matter of fact I had no option. The department had decided not to continue my full time employement.

Five years prior to my retirement I have been dignosed as suffering from Bipolar Disorder. I was hospitalized three times due to manic episodes. Two years after this my wife of 20 years was diagnosed with Multiple Scrilosis. As a consequence our married life had taken a difficult turn. My wife needed lot of bed rest and sexual relations became difficult. I had accepted a sexless marriage but was still very sexual mentally. It was then that I discovered cybersex. I reasoned that cybersex was not being unfaithful to my wife since there was no real sex involved. Gradually I developed three or four relationships and I soon found that it was exactly what I was looking for.

My early retirement did not startwell. Firstly, I was not prepared for retirement and soon became despondent about not having anything worthwhile to do. Bouts of mania and depression occured on regular intervals and I was hospitalized three times in the first three years.

It was during my third hospitalization that I attended a meeting which dealt with transcendental meditation as a tool to manage mania and depression by those suffering from bipolar disorder. It was a woman who presnted the topic. She was in her forties and was born in Canada but met a guru during one of her visits to India and became a disciple. Soon she was exposed to tantra yoga and soon she took the name Bhakti Shakti or true believer. Her screen name was tantric_godess69. I found out all this while having coffee with her one day after her presentation. When she found out about my affliction she advised that I see her regularly and train for tantric life.

The first thing I did after I got out of hospital was to do a through study of tantric marg. I soon found out that tantric life lead to OHM SHANTI or inner peace in addition to total bliss. The requirements of living a tantric life were rigourous. Every day started with a breathing exercise and one hour of meditation. You were expected to read and write on topics that are relevent to your life. Such topics included food, sex, entertainment and religion. Though you were expected to be a vegitarian this rule was not strictly followed. Evangelism was very important and You were expected to spread the belief. Soon it became clear to me that tantric life was congruent to the cybersex relationships I have cultivated. It was with great expectations that oneday I presented myself to be a disciple of Bhakti Shakti. She asked me to call her Sita in our regular discourse. It was agreed that I would meet with Sita three times a week for three hours each day. It was thus that I was introduced to the Tantric Life